Being Thankful

I have much to be thankful for. Every day I remind myself of all the blessings in my life, and how much I am grateful for.

Today I am thankful that I had the chance to have a traditional Thanksgiving meal with my family. A few short months ago, I wasn’t sure if I would have the chance to share another holiday with my mother. Today, as we gathered with her, I was grateful for the time with her.

I am grateful for family members that I am close to, that are such an important part of my life. My sisters, nieces, nephews – I am lucky to have them.

My daughter is the greatest blessing I’ve ever been given. I cannot imagine my life without her. She’s such an amazing, inspiring, beautiful soul and I’m proud to be her mother.

All of these things I am thankful for. Not just today, but every day.

As far as Thanksgiving dinners go, this was one time where I had an extremely hard time getting my ADHD act together! I made the desserts last night, and I DID manage to make a cherry pie that was good. I baked the bundt cake too long, and tried a recipe I’d not made before for something that was akin to an apple coffee cake…and it just turned some weird gluey, yet rubbery consistency and I’m not entirely sure if the fault was with the recipe or me.

Today I had a very hard time focusing on the task at hand. I just felt out of sorts, which didn’t pair well with poor concentration. I got everything done that I was supposed to do, but it was all in this great, hap-hazard fashion that had me wondering what I was doing. I’d start one thing, then think of something else, and before I knew what was happening I had abandoned one task and was into another. I waited too long to put on the potatoes for the mashed potatoes, so it was taking them forever to cook, while I put on the pan of roasted vegetables too soon, turning them into mush. I forgot to make gravy altogether. I forgot to thaw the corn, but I had time, so that worked out. I don’t know, it was just one of those days where I couldn’t hold a thought in my head, everything distracted me, and I wasn’t sure if anything I was doing was going to turn out all right.

My sister prepared part of the meal at her house, and we have done this before, and it worked out, but today we couldn’t seem to get things coordinated. If I didn’t know better, today I would have thought that she also had ADHD! I think she was more confused than I was!

I don’t usually have that problem in the kitchen. I think part of it was that I was cooking at my mom’s. Now I’ve cooked at my mom’s hundreds of times…but my mom was in charge. It was really hard cooking in her kitchen while she was trying to help. We told her that we were taking care of everything, that there was nothing she had to do, we would just have Thanksgiving at her house because it was more convenient for her. But my mother just can’t sit there and let someone else do things. A lot of my confusion came from knowing what I had to do and when I had to do it, but finding that my mother kept creeping back into the kitchen and was taking tasks away from me, or telling me, “Why don’t you….” or “You should really…” She’s never accused us of not being able to cook, but for some reason she was definitely trying to tell us how to do it!

And while that isn’t a big deal, normally, she’s been feeling so weak these last several months, that I was more worried about her standing all day and her needing to not overdo it, than I was about what was going on in the kitchen. Even though she really didn’t do much, she was constantly there, so I feel bad about how tired I know she is now.

Oh well, it all worked out. I wish I hadn’t felt so fuzzy headed and could have enjoyed the day just a little more, but that’s okay. I really hate those fuzzy days though. I hate that hazy feeling that I can’t shake sometimes.

ADHD or no, I’m grateful for one more chance to gather with people I love.

2 thoughts on “Being Thankful

  1. I’ve had those kinds of Thanksgivings. I have lots of notes and lay out everything and follow a schedule. I know it would be all screwed up if I were cooking in some else’s kitchen, but the important thing was sharing time with your family. Have a great weekend. 🙂

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